These paintings troubled me from their inception. Having become discouraged with my work and thinking I needed to make drastic changes, I decided to discard my figures, replacing them with facsimiles - cut-out silhouettes, or in the case of Shade, the absence of a figure altogether. And, for reasons I do not remember, I returned to a years old practice of mine of working an oil painting on top of a black ground, which lends the pictures a dark cast, sometimes to the extent of obscuring the image when insufficiently lit.
The paintings were a thorn in my side until only recently when, while studying and correcting the digital images, I was surprised to realize how accurately these works represented the unhappy personal landscape in which I existed during this period. While I once perceived them as unsuccessful aberrations born of a formal artistic block, I now see perfect portraits of depression.